The comparison trap

This morning as I sit to write, my thoughts are many. I think to myself about all those "great" blogs out there that have inspired me and have so much to good stuff to say. Then that familiar voice pipes up and says "What do you have to offer? You have more questions than answers? People dont want to hear what you have to say."

Here is the thing with that, I know it is bull. I know because God's "voice" speaks to me, in love, to tell me what is true. It doesn't come like a burning bush experience more quiet. Calming my frantic soul. He gives me the worth I seek in other things. When I think of how much He loves me, I don't understand it, but I am starting to accept. Everyday, I let myself be loved a little more. It gives me LIFE.

You know what: Thinking about Jesus, alot of times I want to/ or do cry. Not because I am sad but I think because I get overwhelmed and my body just does it. Jesus really is the greatest man I have ever known.

One desire is to cut out all the BS that is wrapped in perceptions. How that gets done. I don't know. And that's ok...repeat...not knowing is ok....

**Today is "movie day"! That is when I get the great pleasure of going out with my Gabby and all her friends (normally the same 6 people ranging from 60-80 years old) to lunch and a movie. I am the youngest one there. Often time they don't listen to what I have to say because I am "young". What I used to dread, I like so much now. Just listening to them, being with them. For some reason I can't explain, it doesn't seem to matter as much whether I get "heard" or not.