My own space

My how time flies when you are having fun (and not so fun!) heehee

I'll let you in on a little something, working in an office setting is not my cup of tea. How do I know this? Because this past week and next week I work 3 days each in a bank (the trust dept.). To me there is nothing more boring than filing and alphabetizing. I am trying to keep a good outlook about it though. Being grateful despite the monotony.

I am making the bedroom in my grandmothers house more of a "mel space"...I think I will be staying here for another semester and then see what happens. It is good for me because it does not add any expenses like rent and stuff to my life. Very thankful to my Gabby. I seriously hope I grow alot with how I communicate and deal with people because sometimes my pride has cause some very tense moments...not to mention my Gabs love of controlling my life. She is trying and I can see that...it is definitely a mutual desire we both have--to love each other better.

My Pats have hit playoff time. Wild card games ahead (after the 2 left in the season)...I am looking foward to see what happens. I love an underdog. Boy, would I like to see the Colts "go down"...is that bad, probably not very christian of me but....

Ok got to go. I will try to write more once my winter break is over and school is in session again. Until then it will be just the occasional post.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL! I hope nothing but peace in your heart and joy in your life...

control

I need to release control. Please Jesus, help me with that. You after all probably gave my the notion I even have that tendency. My control is out of fear.

On a lighter note, the Patriots play a very important game today. Against the TB Bucs. Here's hoping they clinch the division and move into the playoffs. Doing the very thing the silly sportcasters said they couldn't do with all the injuries they have had.

Rest

(Writing from Dad's...short post)

I am having a really good time. There are moments when I feel like my Dad and I were never apart and other times when I think...this is weird. But a good weird. I like that I have this chance to know my Dad. To see him for who he is and love him. Not "in spite of" but "for who he is". I don't have to agree with everything he does either...loving is deep stuff. Deeper than I even get.

Love, what a wonderful mystery....

Days go by...

Well, I have been busy and not able to stop in for an update. Sometimes I miss it because even if it is just a small blurb it gets something out of my mind and in "the real".

I am headed to my Dad's tomorrow morning for a 7 day holiday. That is the longest I have spent with him at one time in my life. Wish me well with that. Talk about looking for grace!

Also, doing some pick-up shot in Carlsbad today. Going to be going non-stop for 16 hours. You know what, it goes by in a flash because I love it. The team I am going with this week is Lance, Michelle, Ralph, Brian, Mike, Luis, Bob and me.

No more updates until the 14th unless I can jump on at my dad's. We'll see.

Love to you and be at peace.

My final

Today I took my final, I did ok...I think. Not great and not bad. The thing that kills me is that I have worked in film before and some of the "easier" questions I missed. A tad embaressing and maybe that is what bugs me. How I will appear...'Mel, who has worked in production does mediocre on a test, what's wrong with her?' Ahhhh, my mind at work. When will I allow grace to be complete. Not me and my works and if I need it grace but grace all the time 24/7. I want to bask in it...

On a different front: check this out. Personally, I think this guy is a genius! Why couldnt I have thought of it...well, besides the fact I would never start any endeavor that center around a computer or programming! No way, not in this life.

Thanks for stopping in and reading my little attempt at transparency. It is harder than I thought but I am finding it fun.

You know what, I have alot to learn, and yet a big part of me thinks I know everything and hates when others tell me differently. Very comical.