Squash

There is something God put in my heart where I now see and feel when I am "squashing" Him. When I treat Him like my "little imaginary friend" instead of the wonderfully, amazing, loving Father that He is.

He shows me. Despite the fact I am so loved by Jesus, it is my belief that in that love He corrects me. It isnt mean or oppressive to me. It feels safe. I know that His motive is not to manipulate or play games with me but to show me a more excellent way. That way is love.

REAL LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR. I think one of the ways God has shown me that kind of love is through my best friend, Jayn. She is wonderful. Real and raw. Honest. Humble. And knows some really lame stuff I have done and loves me still. When I experienced that kind of friendship with her...I think in alot of ways I began to get more of a glimpse of how God must feel for me---being that His love is perfect. He doesn't want to squash me down or live in a box of traditions. He wants me free.

I am gonna end it there. "God with us"....Selah

***ps...I wrote this on a tired brain! :)