Writing 101

Meeting with two people from class to work on a treatment for a short film we want to do together for the class. Very Twilight Zone before it went wonky. I don't know if I am a good screenwriter since most of what I do is very stream of consciousness. We shall see.

New things, while I really like them always fill me with a nervous energy...some more than others. Last night, as I went to sleep, I thought about how weird it feels to meet a new friend. Going through all the phases that getting to know someone brings. In the past, I really misrepresented who or what I was so now I have to fight the urge to go uber-rebellious for the sake of "staying real". Staying vulnerable to another person is interesting. I get sort of scared but then I remind myself of my place in God's heart (and vice versa) and it normally mellows me out. I am experiencing through life that relationships take time, energy, trust, faith, love and very little of all that is instantaneous. And in the end (whether the friendship/or whatever) there are no guarantees. None. I can't help but wonder about God's role in that. What does he think? Hmmm.

Hey, I don't know. Just living and learning. So far, while there are moments of complete uncertainty I like where God is taking me. He is making me "new" from the inside out.