Just "me"...

I thought I would post a little something while I am waiting for my clothes to dry. I really should be going to bed at a normal hour but I kind of want to stay up late and get up early (for my temp job at the bank-last day for this assignment is tomorrow) like in the old days. It is funny but when I hit 31 last year something in my body cannot pull an all-nighter or even a late-nighter. For the most part 9 or 10 is the latest I can stay awake. Like clockwork when that hour hits, my body says "hey, remember me, I need rest...". So I oblige. Tonight I am revolting. I need to get some stuff done and I chose tonight.

Ok, time for my silly rant, I have loved the New England Patriots ever since I was a little girl but more so in my adulthood. I think it is because I grew up back East and also I love an underdog (until recently they were always on the losing side of the ball)---hard to believe that the last 5 years happened. Well, that said, the team as I know it is no more. Several of the players I have been watching for many years are moving on. It feels weird. What will it be like to see one of "my boys" wearing a different uniform. However, a part of me is realistic. That is the way of pro sports. Money, trading, business, frachises...but to me I see the Patriots as a great example of faith and destiny meeting and greatness ensuing. It is like everything lines up for that time. Teamwork, not one star but a group of men fighting for a common goal. Sacrifice, working hard, putting others before yourself--these are all traits that are in many of the players on this team. Maybe that time has passed, who knows. I still love them and will continue to root for them every Sunday until I am old and gray. God, thank you for humoring me when I get so obnoxious over my fave team. Now I won't insult somebody else BUT I am fiercely loyal!

I am tired of men who lie. I don't ask them to. I don't think I make them feel like that is the only option and yet---
over and over guys I am befriending are being deceitful. It puzzles me to say the least. Maybe there is something about communicating I can be learning. In the past I used to think it was my fault and blame myself and now I see, I need to be honest with them. Share my heart about how their treating me is not acceptable. Always be open to reconcile with them and not hold grudges. Easier said than done, but I am gaining courage (hope that comes out pratically some day!). I don't have alot when it comes to men and frankly I don't know what is a normal way a man treats a woman. I have had alot of knocks. Little by little I see glimpses of what real men are capable of, not perfect mind you, but sincere genuine ones. It is a wonderful thing for me. It builds my faith.

Jesus, could you send more men into my life. Genuine ones (not for romantic reasons but just to open my eyes more to what's is TRUE). Thanks.

peace.
mel