my plan

Well, I have been doing some odds and ends class training to work as an AD (assistant director) . This will be a continual process as there is alot to learn. My real desire is to one day have some camera time but for now I will do this since I do enjoy it and I find it suits my love of helping and people-oriented. Last week was a busy one, I put together a crew to shoot a scene for an acting class workshop (it is one of 4 that we are doing). This will give us hands-on experience which is valuable in the film biz. This week I am getting ready for a Saturday all night shoot and then on to next week (March 13th) shooting for 3 days. There is so much to learn and at times it feels overwhelming. That said, I do really love filmmaking.

Still thinking about my "friend"...I am giving it time to settle. I don't really feel like responding, I kind of want them to come to me. Not so that I can make them grovel and beg or soemthing because that is stupid...but I guess if they intiaited contact it would show me that they wanted to be my friend still and that their relationship with me is not shallow but mutual. So I just share my thoughts on paper and with God. I don't really hear him say anything but I do feel better afterwards.

I'm getting sleeping. Off to rest. I have to clean my room and stuff tomorrow. Along with a few meetings.