To wait

Well that guy who said there might be something open on his crew, has to check with his PM (production manager). The PM will decide if he can bring me on. So I wait....

and hope I don't drive myself crazy in the mean time!

peace out.
mel

Daddy, relieve my worry but let's say I still choose to do it. Help me carry it.
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Ok, today I work at the bank for half a day then I shoot 2 scenes tonight. These are called "steals" since they were originally on the schedule for another day but because the some of the talent (3 of the cast) flaked and committed to another project too (with the same schedule as we have) then we have to work around them. That has played out with 2 hour spurts of filming and hitting it hard on the weekend. On weekends we go again and try to get off a mess laod of pages for a student production, like 5 1/8**. That is not impossible in and of itself but we are students and our talent are too! Meaning we cannot conflict with other life responsibilities. As the assistant director (AD)...I can tell you it has been challenging to make around 30 peoples schedule jive to build a good crew and have the talent where the need to be. Thankfully, there has been grace shown to me when I make an error.

I said this to my friend Jaynie but saying it out loud might make it less "big": I want to go to LA, I want to work on that production with the AD who came out here, and I want to keep the same foundation under me and have it grow even stronger. Are all three possible?

Time will tell.
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**The script is measured by 1/8th's of a page--- 8/8=1 page

Nothing normal

So part of my job entails listening to the rantings of various crew members. This can be challenging. I am meant to listen but somehow not carry it with me. Some days I find that easier than others. It is that delicate blend of not letting people put their opinions "on" me but still being symapthetic and trying to mediate. God give me the grace because I am just not always up for the task. Once in awhile I want to say "Shut the f- up, can you do anything other than complain?" Other times it is "How can I make this better, am I not doing my job...?" And even more (lately) there are those divine blessed moments people rant and it just sort of stops there. I like those times. God is good to me!

I have been offered to go to LA to work on a project. I've been afraid to be excited for fear it won't happen or what if I want something and God doesn't but I am pushing my will on him. The crazy thing is, I like what I have been doing...AD-ing films doesn't define me but it is just about doing something I like and what seems to come naturally out of me. It is a work in progress though to not let mistakes dictate my worthiness. I think in many ways God is conquering my people pleasing through these film experiences. If you don't stay firmly rooted in who you know you are, all peoples thoughts and feelings could overwhelm you.

Every person has an opinion and seldom is it reality. Even mine...

peace,
Mel

I need patience. To be patient with people.

Boy, despite the busy-ness I REALLY like what I am doing lately.

Do you think God meets us even when we are so insanely busy all we can do in a day outside of work is sleep...

Just Breathe

Right now I am sitting in a coffee shop, drinking water and answering emails. I haven't had this much free time in weeks. Have you ever been so busy, life seems to be moving faster than you can intake it? There is just so much. It is nice to have a bit of "downtime".

I thought I should pass on some news that a week ago I got some training from a working 1st AD (who lives and works in LA). He invited me out to work on a Hallmark project sometime in June. I am excited for that possibility. It would be a great experience.

I have been learning so much. Cool stuff...

love ya,
mel

Too busy for words

Hey Gang!

Been a while since I have written. Working on the film 100MPG, it was going to be a simple class project but once we had Mark Medoff signed on, it became a bigger deal. He is a very wonderful director. My role in this project is as a 1st AD, but in the next few days I will be moving on to 2nd AD to give other people in class to have a chance.

I have been busy but enjoying myself and found something in life I really like to do. It isn't without its challenges but I like it a bunch.

more soon...

pre-production....

get on the crazy bus...

MORE LATER!

peace.
mel