Nothing normal

So part of my job entails listening to the rantings of various crew members. This can be challenging. I am meant to listen but somehow not carry it with me. Some days I find that easier than others. It is that delicate blend of not letting people put their opinions "on" me but still being symapthetic and trying to mediate. God give me the grace because I am just not always up for the task. Once in awhile I want to say "Shut the f- up, can you do anything other than complain?" Other times it is "How can I make this better, am I not doing my job...?" And even more (lately) there are those divine blessed moments people rant and it just sort of stops there. I like those times. God is good to me!

I have been offered to go to LA to work on a project. I've been afraid to be excited for fear it won't happen or what if I want something and God doesn't but I am pushing my will on him. The crazy thing is, I like what I have been doing...AD-ing films doesn't define me but it is just about doing something I like and what seems to come naturally out of me. It is a work in progress though to not let mistakes dictate my worthiness. I think in many ways God is conquering my people pleasing through these film experiences. If you don't stay firmly rooted in who you know you are, all peoples thoughts and feelings could overwhelm you.

Every person has an opinion and seldom is it reality. Even mine...

peace,
Mel