Coffee

I am having coffee with a young man named Mark tomorrow. 10 AM. Let's just say I am a bit nervous. Haven't had a date in a long while. I can tell certain things in me are changing because I don't stay self-conscious for as long, IF it happens at all. I think more of what I am feeling is a nervous energy. Being excited. I really want to stay true to who I am. Be real. Think of this as nothing earth shattering but just meeting a new friend (albeit one that is very good looking).

I guess it is still new to me to appreciate that another person would find me interesting enough to want to get to know better. I like it. I like knowing that I bring some very cool things into a relationship/friendship/whatever...and also my weakness are in need of God's infinite grace.

God, you know how much courage it took for me to call back and initiate this contact, thank you for giving me grace in the fear. I am a true believer not in the absence of fear but being courageous is facing that fear and pushing through. Dreaming big.

Be with me tomorrow when I will be calming myself down so I dont' spin off the map. Loves, Your Melly